I am not trying to be offensive. I’m just being real. If you really want to know what it took for me to learn how to take control of my mind, you will get that by reading this. Offensive or not. I rather be truthful and accurate about my own experience, instead of provide you with some half truth. I guess I could have said, “I am not a PUNK” or I am not a “LOSER”, but that is not real. That didn’t happen to me.
Once I’d realized that I could transform my life, by taking control of my mind, I put one of the worst things that I could think of into my head. It actually started out when I decided that I had to quit chewing tobacco. Which was several months prior to starting my transformation and building the body that I desired to have.
I started chewing tobacco when I was a senior in college at the age of 22. Twenty-three years later, I was still chewing. I unsuccessfully quit several times. I would think about things like how gross my habit was and how it would make me feel in the morning when I was dehydrated from it. Sometimes my breath stunk from it. I even damaged keyboards and entire computers. In one case I dumped chew spit on a $3,000 MAC. That was one expensive tin of Skoal. I had to buy a brand new one. I also knew that it had a negative effect on strength and muscle development. I thought about losing my jaw to cancer and even had numbness in my throat and check along with other strange sensations. Fortunately, none of those problems currently exist. Based on doctors and dental visits, I have no medical issues from chewing. I use to watch the singing cowboy commercial (TRUTH – “You Don’t Always Die from Tobacco”) and think, what if that happens to me. I would rather die than go through that. None of these things made me quit. But they did make me think about quitting.
One day I realized that I could quit if I really wanted to. So I thought about one of the worst things that anyone could call me. “PUSSY”. Next thing I know, I would reach for my tin and in my head, I would say, “If you take that, than you are a PUSSY!!!” It’s funny. It worked. I don’t want anyone calling me a PUSSY, including myself. I wasn’t a PUSSY, because I chewed tobacco. And I don’t want to say that it was easy to quit. But it was all because I convinced myself that if I could not control my own mind than I was a PUSSY.
When it came time to starting my transformation, I decided to use the same motivation. Obviously, a lot more than that motivated me, but this helped. And within the first week, I was a PUSSY one time during the whole 16 weeks. It’s not something that I can settle for. I rather be a BAD ASS than a PUSSY. My greatest strength is my MIND and I do control it. I can break bad habits and enforce good ones. I AM NOT A PUSSY!!!